Author: Emily Harrison

  • On Blogging

    On Blogging

    Hello and welcome back to Liveliness my amazing readers.

    This post is about blogging. Fancy that. A blog post about blogging.

    This post is for the three readers that will see this post. Hello, how are you? Go ahead and introduce yourself in the comments if you like.

    Blogging is hard. Mostly because hardly anyone reads my blog. I don’t say that to guilt trip anyone, it’s just a fact. I thought that by now I would have at least a few subscribers, but I have one subscriber. And that one subscriber is me.

    Sometimes I feel like I am speaking into the void, but I keep writing to have a creative outlet, for the off chance that I might connect with someone, and because it gives my days off of work some purpose. For example, writing this blog post will save me from at least twenty minutes of scrolling through YouTube shorts, although I do love them.

    One of the best things about blogging though, is the free AI image generator built into the word press posting software. It has leveled up my game with post images. It summarizes what I have written in the post for me and creates a prompt to make an image that encapsulates what the blog post is about.

    Anyways, if you want to help me on my blogging journey, let me know what I could do to improve my blog posts, I would appreciate the feedback. And let me know what kind of blog post you would like to read in the future.


    What I’ve been loving


    I have a new Beauty of Joseon Ginseng Cleansing Oil that I have been liking. It has cleared my skin more than Cetaphil, Neutrogena, or CeraVe, so if those brands aren’t working for you I would suggest looking into Beauty of Joseon.

    I also have this new gold twist ring that I have been loving. It is part of my everyday basic jewelry and goes with everything.


    Weekly Inspiration


    For behold, this is my work and my glory—to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.

    Moses 1:39

    God’s goal is for us to become immortal and have eternal life. He is good at his job. A reason that you can choose joy in this life is because you are looking forward to what is to come.

    ❤ Have a good week.

  • My Experience Doing Etsy POD

    My Experience Doing Etsy POD

    Hello and welcome back to Liveliness. I hope you all are making it through your days.

    Today I am going to be talking about my experience doing Etsy POD.

    If you don’t know what that is it’s Etsy Print On Demand.

    Basically you choose an online good, make a design for it, then sell that good with that design on it on your Etsy shop.

    The print on demand software that I chose to use was Printify. It’s really easy to use with Etsy because you just link your shop to it, then you can choose your products and upload your designs onto them.

    I used Canva Pro to make my designs along with clip art from Creative Fabrica.

    I advertised my products on Instagram and Pinterest and used mockups from Etsy. I used Everbee and Erank for my SEO and keyword research.

    I learned how to do all this with YouTube and Printify.

    The great thing is that all of this is free to use unless you use a premium version of it.

    The bad thing with the learning process is that there are many voices out there, all telling you different things. I could find YouTube videos telling me that I could succeed and make thousands of dollars doing Etsy POD, and others telling me that the time for Etsy POD was over and that I would only lose money. Furthermore, everyone seemed to be offering their own course on how to make it big with Etsy POD. There was always a different person with a different suggested way to do things. It was very confusing, overwhelming, and distressing.

    The products I chose to design were mainly t-shirts, blankets, mugs, and sweatshirts.

    I think in total I got 5 sales and made $35 in profit before I quit. And there’s a couple of reasons why I quit. First, it took a lot of time to research designs, create them, do SEO for them, and upload them. So in the long run it wasn’t worth it for me. Second, I didn’t enjoy spending all of that time at a computer. My world felt like it was reduced to one small screen and I didn’t like that. Third, I saw a lot of inappropriate things on Etsy when I was doing my design research, so much so that it made it not worth it to continue. Fourth, I was experiencing mental health challenges at the time that made it difficult to work. These last two reasons were the main reasons why I decided to quit Etsy POD.

    As far as the inappropriate things, I saw swear words that I wasn’t comfortable with, inappropriate jokes, and very immodest clothing. I had thought that as a small handmade business platform, Etsy would emphasize more family-friendly styles, but that just was not the case. And suffice it to say that I was a little disappointed with it.

    On the lighter side, doing Etsy POD taught me certain business skills that I am glad I have now. It taught me how to use Canva, and I can now use it for various gifts and logos. It also taught me that business ventures are a lot more work than they seem like they will be. Furthermore, it taught me that I don’t like the finance aspect of business very much. I hated keeping track of my expenses in a spread sheet and trying to budget. It was monotonous for me.

    In conclusion, some people may make tons of money doing Etsy POD, but I found out that it was not for me, and that’s ok. I think that the lessons that I learned from it were worth it. I don’t think it’s my job to either recommend or not recommend Etsy POD because everyone has their own experience. But I would encourage you to take my experience as a lesson to you on your own path of figuring out Etsy POD.

    Good luck out there, and I will see you all next week with another blog post. ❤

  • When You Don’t Have It All: Running Edition

    When You Don’t Have It All: Running Edition

    I ran cross country and track in high school and I always felt like everyone had better running stuff than me. More expensive watches, cuter clothes, fancier shoes.

    Now that I am out of high school I see all these running influencers on Instagram with their expensive sets of shorts and sports bras, the best watches, multiple pairs of shoes, energy gels, and so on.

    I just want to emphasize that you don’t have to have all the fanciest stuff to enjoy or be a good runner. A few cheap workout outfits, a pair of good shoes (I wear new balance), and a garmin forerunner is what I have.

    So go ahead and get out of the comparison trap and just know that there’s always someone that has more.

    Running isn’t about having fancy stuff, although it may be fun, and if that’s a part of running that you strive for and enjoy, good for you. But if you don’t have the fanciest stuff, it’s ok. Still get out there and go on some good runs and enjoy what you do have.

    — ENJOY WHAT YOU DO HAVE —

    ❤ ❤ ❤

  • Finding Balance In Your Life

    Finding Balance In Your Life

    Hello, and welcome back to Liveliness.

    Today I want to talk about finding balance in your life.

    It’s hard to find balance.

    In fact, I think that it takes a constant daily effort.

    You can do pretty much anything too much or too little. And what is too much or too little looks different for everybody everyday.

    But don’t worry, it’s definitely possible.

    Take scripture study for example. I choose to read just a few verses a day and that suffices for me and my schedule. I used to make myself read a chapter but I felt like I would lose touch with the spirit and be focused instead on the length.

    So for me I was reading too much and needed to tone it down to get the benefits I wanted from it.

    But, most days, reading just one verse feels too short for me. So by reading a few to several verses I found that balance.

    Another example of this is with food. I go through phases where I eat a little too much food and gain a little weight and where I eat a little too little food and lose a little weight. I think that this is a normal part of eating food, but it demonstrates the daily effort that it takes to maintain a balance. It’s a lot of little adjustments of a little more than before or a little less than before until you have inevitably slipped up and tipped the scales and have to restart.

    Another way to describe balance I think is a daily changing to be a little bit better than you were before, or a correcting of mistakes. In the LDS religion we also call this repentance.

    I think finding balance is a beautiful daily struggle that is part of the purpose of life.

    I wish you all luck in finding balance in your daily lives and believe that you will find joy through it.

    Feel free to share any struggles that you’ve had finding balance in your own life and what you have learned.

    If you like what you have read feel free to subscribe to follow along with my blogging journey! ❤

  • What I Eat In a Day

    What I Eat In a Day

    Good day everyone and welcome back to Liveliness.

    This is where I share a little bit of my world with all of you lovely people. Today’s post is What I Eat In a Day.

    Today I just have work so I start off the day at 7:00 am.

    Starting with breakfast I ate overnight oats.

    They’re delicious and healthy. This is a recipe that I found on the internet by searching overnight oats. It’s just quick oats, milk, yogurt, honey, and chia seeds. I don’t use measurements, but I just do whatever looks right. I put them in this mason jar which makes it a little more fun.

    In the morning I added cocoa powder and peanut butter to make it chocolate peanut butter oatmeal.

    I highly recommend this addition as the flavors take it to the next level.

    Next, I take my lunch to work with me so it all has to be portable and we don’t have a microwave or kitchen so it’s usually a sandwich.

    Today the sandwich is peanut butter and honey which is my favorite. The gooeyness of peanut butter and the sweetness of honey mixed together makes it perfect.

    Then I added some crackers, cherry tomatoes, and fruit snacks.

    Side note: I only ate half the crackers.

    Next, when I was finally home from work it’s time for dinner and I had this delicious Korean Beef Bowl.

    Then I put a Sriracha Mayo sauce on it.

    This dinner is delicious and it is made with rice, ground beef, and cucumbers and shredded carrots along with a bunch of seasonings and sauces that I won’t get into here.

    The crunchiness of the vegetables along with the tanginess and spiciness of the sauces is amazing. Suffice it to say that I ate it very fast.

    After that I had this fruit bowl.

    It was just the leftovers that my aunt had brought.

    And my mom had made some lemon poppyseed bread so I had some of that as well.

    A couple hours after dinner as a sweet treat I had chocolate chips to reward myself for doing a task that I don’t enjoy doing.

    And of course I had to have some chocolate milk with it to satisfy those sugar cravings.

    And that’s what I ate in a day. This is the kind of food I typically have everyday. Especially the oatmeal and peanut butter and honey sandwich.

    Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed seeing what I eat in a day and maybe got some inspiration for what you want to eat.

    If you have any questions feel free to comment them, or email me. My email can be found in the about section of my blog.

  • The Thornire Kingdom: Prologue

    The Thornire Kingdom: Prologue

    Darmin breathed heavily, excitement filling his chest. He was so close. His eyes scanned the page of the heavy, weathered book, its edges tattered from centuries of use. The smooth leather-bound spine pressed into his hand. Running his finger down the yellowed pages his eyes fell upon what he needed printed in scrawling, loopy cursive: The Great Wizard Ashberg.

    The Great Wizard Ashberg, he read in his mind, is to be found in Danin Collin Valley. Finally. His years of searching had come to fruition. His eyes raked over the rest of the small print on the page but found nothing else helpful. Closing his book and returning it to the worn shelf of the old library, Darmin nodded to himself, knowing what needed to be done as he tromped to his dwelling. Ample preparation would be needed for the journey ahead.

    In his home he packed food: dried meats, bread, and cheese; a change of clothes; a map; and a nap sack. Grabbing a gnarled walking stick from outside, he rehearsed everything else he needed in his head. It would be a long journey to Danin Collin Valley.

    Walking along a river on a beaten path, Darmin knew what he wanted, and another book had confirmed that the Great Wizard Ashberg could provide it for him. It was important as everything he did was, but this was the most important thing he had ever attempted. Dared he think it? An army. Made of shadows. He believed he had the skill to conjure it. It would take months of preparation of course, and who knew what state Ashberg would be in when He arrived in Danin Collin. Aside from the pride he felt blooming in his heart, he also felt a flicker of fear. What if it didn’t work? Or what if Ashberg refused to teach him?

    Great Ashberg was most known for leading the Naroth army into battle. Fiercely conjuring spells alongside some of the bravest men in history, he had defended his homeland. The men had been strong and fought with axes and swords, but they would not have been victorious had it not been for Ashberg leading them, dealing death blow after death blow and striking courage into the hearts of his comrades.

    As Darmin walked on the pine-needle laiden path the smell of pine assailed his senses. Listening to the rushing waters of the river, he felt peaceful. His mood matched his surroundings that held gently cawing birds and a slight breeze. A feeling of elation bounced in his stomach denoting his excitement at drawing nearer to Ashberg and the creation of his great army.

    Days and nights passed with Darmin sleeping on the ground and eating his provisions. On the seventh morning, having arrived to his sleeping place that night in the dark, he awoke on a hill, sitting up to see a view of Danin Collin Valley. Multitudes of vibrant green trees, oak and pine, dotted the valley along with a brown mass of a small village on the far east side that was highlighted by the rising sun. Darmin took a deep inhale and admired the view. It was glorious, but a world this glorious had still not seen the might and power of his soon to be army. The world could only be made better by it, and Darmin reveled in the thought of the riches that lay in his future.

    Trekking into the woods to find Ashberg, since he certainly did not live in a village, because wizards did not often mix with humans, they preferred privacy to practice their magic in peace. The humans tended to bother the wizards with requests to use their magic for them, he found a path to traverse. Walking through the trees for a day and a night, he looked for him until the next day he came upon a stone hut with a straw roof built between two groves of aspen trees. This may be the hut of Ashberg.

    He straightened himself and walked up to the door and knocked. Pearly white teeth bit his lip as he felt a thrill of anxiousness race down his spine. He waited thirty seconds until the door creaked open. The Great Wizard Ashberg himself stood on the other side of the threshold. He had a short white beard and scraggly white eyebrows. He was balding too. He was wearing a green wizard’s robe which had sleeves that hit an inch above his wrists. He was little known to all wizards and all people in general due to the dark magic that he possessed. But to the ones that did know him, the ones who practiced dark magic, and in Darmin’s book, the ones who counted, he was agreed upon to be great.

    “Hello,” Darmin said, “I am come to–.”

    “Who are you?” Ashberg interrupted, glaring at him.

    “I am the wizard Darmin, come to seek your mentorship on a rumored spell that creates armies.”

    Ashberg just stared at him for several seconds until Darmin wasn’t sure if he had heard him. Then he said, “Come in.”

    Darmin regaled him with the story of his long trek to find him and explained his intention of creating a shadow army. To rule the world no less. Darmin was one to revel in opulence and seek out riches and the finer things in this world. He explained that Ashberg was the one he needed to bring his goal to completion.

    “I agree, you do need me,” he said, “this spell is a dangerous one indeed. It hasn’t been attempted for eons. The records of its outcomes and effects are sparse. I can’t recommend that you try to learn the spell, therefore, I refuse to teach you.”

    Darmin couldn’t believe it. He had come all this way just to be refused. Anger welled up inside of him, “If you won’t teach it to me, I will find a way to learn it myself.”

    “That is impossible. You would be remiss to attempt it on your own and of course I am the only one who possesses such knowledge.”

    “Please, I beg of you, I must create this army,” He said, his voice going hoarse. Darmin stared at Ashberg. Then, muttering words, he began to say an incantation to disable Ashberg.

    “Are you attempting a spell against me?” Ashberg roared in outrage. He muttered a counterattack and Darmin’s voice was silenced. Ashberg took a steadying breath, sensing he was safe now.

    Eventually he said in resignation, “I am too old to deny it to you, I might as well pass on the knowledge before I am gone. Very well, I shall teach you. It is called the spell of Gnarlock. Come.”

    Darmin’s vocals restored, Ashberg led Darmin behind the hut where he saw another building built out of sturdy-looking wood. Coming to the door they both stepped inside and Darmin saw that it was an observatory of sorts that was filled with magical equipment and shelves lined with books. Cauldrons and misplaced books and maps littered a table along with beakers, telescopes, and jars filled with strange looking plants.

    Ashberg walked up a set of old stairs to a loft that housed shelves. Pulling an old leather-bound copy off the shelf and bringing it down to the table where Darmin awaited, Ashberg gave Darmin a long look. Then, muttering to himself, he began thumbing through pages, stopping on a less used-looking page. The page was titled The Spell Of Gnarlock and was covered with warnings about the danger of the spell. One read: Those who attempt this spell may unleash more than they intend. The author advised that the spell was for reading purposes only and should not be attempted. Darmin disregarded the warnings.

    Ashberg read aloud, “The spell of Gnarlock takes a potion brewed with rare ingredients over a fire, completed on the night of a full moon with dozens of words that must be memorized and said out loud over the potion. Then one must drink the potion, then spit in the fire and remove the cauldron. The fire will then grow bright and the Gnarlock will form. A dark mist will emerge and form into a human shape until it resembles the silhouette of a person that is long and slender. Then this will be repeated, one by one, until your army is formed.” Under that it listed ingredients to the potion and the words that needed to be memorized.

    “The words to the spell of Gnarlock: Sen argentum nastaroth slenseeth a mandulum comarlune ya an argun solan a mendan thenmarnarnap insen deena nroth argun carn nemdulum argentum a slenseeth an rhenarn yandere en andrel endreb bener nastaron aneron a argentum.”

    “Those are quite unique words,” Darmin said

    “They are the words that make an army for you. Do not take them lightly,” Ashberg commanded.

    “And these potion ingredients,” Darmin remarked running his finger along the page, “I’ve never seen half of them,”

    “I know where to find them,” said Ashberg, “But we will have to take a journey for some of them, many are hard to find,”

    “Lead the way,” said Darmin.

    II

    At last, it was ready. Ashberg and Darmin had labored for nearly a year perfecting their spell. Part of Darmin thought that the reason for Ashberg’s tireless laboring was that he wanted his legacy passed down to Darmin. Perhaps if Darmin was successful he could be remembered as having the Great Wizard Ashberg as his mentor and Ashberg would have one more accomplishment to his name before he died.

    Gathering ingredients and memorizing words, while also practicing proper pronunciation and techniques, they were finally ready. It was the night of the full moon and Ashberg and Darmin were busy building a fire in a clearing by Ashberg’s hut. Once done Ashberg placed his cauldron on some wood over the flames. He started putting the rare ingredients in, following the directions with exactly as written. It took hours for the potion to brew. Then, once it was ready, Ashberg ordered Darmin to say the words.

    He recited from memory, “Sen argentum nastaroth slenseeth a mandulum comarlune ya an argun solan a mendan thenmarnarnap insen deena nroth argun carn nemdulum argentum a slenseeth an rhenarn yandere en andrel endreb bener nastaron aneron a argentum.”

    The final words left his lips as he quickly dipped the ladel. The bubbling liquid was poured into the glass. Smiling, Darmin drank it. With a mighty blow he spat it into the fire. Quickly, he pulled the cauldron from the flames. The fire grew brighter and brighter, then so bright they had to look away. Then a small glowing mass formed and grew more concentrated in the center of the fire.

    The mass began to radiate blackness inches from its center. It stood like that for a few seconds then it fell into the fire with a thud putting the fire out. A round black translucent stone sat there with a bright center two inches wide. The black portion of the rock was the size of two fists put together. A dark mist began to emmenate from the rock. It grew and grew, undulating around the rock and extinguished the fire. Growing some more it began to form shape. Resembling a translucent silhouette of a human as the book had described, tall and slender, it stood there for a second. Then something crackled and popped, and the fire sparked back to life and the silhouette was scattered. A roar went up out of the fire, and something like a shooting star shot out of the fire and into the woods.

    “Oh no,” Ashberg said gravely, “I knew this wouldn’t be a good idea.”

    “What was that,” Darmin asked, slightly breathlessly.

    “That was very bad news. I am not quite sure what it was, but we will find out soon enough.”

    The fire went out again. The silhouette reformed from the rock – its source of power, the Gnarlock. Then another one formed. And another. They kept forming until there were hundreds then thousands of them standing silently amongst the trees.

    “Wow, I’VE DONE IT!”He exclaimed, feeling jubilant and beaming at his army of Argentas.

    “Something went wrong,” Ashberg commented, “There shouldn’t have been that roar or that flash of whatever we saw.” Ashberg checked his book. He looked grave.

    “What is it?” Darmin asked.

    “We may have created a beast,” Ashberg said, “Look,” he pointed to a picture on the page. It was of a six legged hard shelled creature with antennas.

    “What do they do?” Darmin asked.

    “it doesn’t say, all it has is the picture, but it can’t be good.” The monster had shot off into the distance, too far for Darmin and Ashberg to see it. They looked around at their army.

    “We march for the palace in the morning,” Darmin commanded, “But what of the monster?” He asked Ashberg.

    “We must search for it, the situation is too dire,” he said, strained. Darmin commanded his army to stay put and followed Ashberg through the trees.

    III

    Hours later, Darmin and Ashberg came upon a village. The houses’ walls were bent and mangled, with sides crushed inward. were torn down and crumbled pieces of the statue in the city square lay on the cobblestone streets.

    “How has this happened?” Darmin said in shock. Darmin and Ashberg hurried forward to survey the wreckage up close.

    “I’m guessing that whatever that thing was last night did this,” Ashberg remarked as he surveyed the collapsed remnants.

    “I think so too,” remarked Darmin. Then his eyes grew big, “Look out,” He said. Ashberg turned around and first saw two long antennas. He followed them to see the hard shell, pointy teeth, and six legs. Coming to just below Ashberg’s knee, the creature pointed its antenna at Ashberg and they began to glow.

    “It’s just a baby,” he said. Then Ashberg’s knees began to wobble suspiciously.

    “No,” He breathed. His breathing quickened as if he was running. Fumbling in his mind for any spell that could counteract this creature he at last thought of one and said it, pointing at the creature. It had little effect, only making the creature stumble, before getting back up and continuing to weaken Ashberg. Darmin tried a spell too. It did the same thing. Then they both rapidly fired whatever spells came to mind but the creature was unyielding.

    “Run.” Darmin said. They both turned to run and the creature followed, easily keeping up. Then it caught up and pinned Ashberg to the ground with its six pointy legs. Ashberg grew even weaker and stopped being able to fight back.

    “No!” Darmin yelled, he fired spell after spell at the nameless creature, but it kept Ashberg pinned.

    “Run!” Ashberg yelled. Darmin hesitated, but then saw that he had no choice and ran. He didn’t know where else to go so he ran towards Ashberg’s hut. Ashberg remained pinned under the creature, still weakening. He inhaled, “Run,” he whispered one last time, and he exhaled through his mouth with a soft huh sound, not being able to find another inhale.

  • Ramblings/Lyric Commentary

    Through Me (The Flood) by Hozier

    “Try measure loss, measure the silence of a house
    The unheard footsteps at the doorway, the unemployment of the mouth
    The waking up, having forgotten and remembering again
    The full extent of what forever is”

    By far, my favorite part of the song Through Me (The Flood) by Hozier is the lyrics, “The waking up, having forgotten and remembering again/ The full extent of what forever is.”

    It’s so beautiful to me. It’s a perfect reminder that life extends even when it seems like it’s done. That death is not the end and we will all live on.

    Sometimes I listen to this song in the mornings on my drive to work and I fully relate to “waking up, having forgotten… what forever is.” And this song is the reason that I remember it again. What a way that is to start the day, remembering that you will never run out of chances to be who you want to be.

    For those of you who don’t know, I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. And we believe that we will all live on after death. Forever. We are all immortal beings and are simply on earth to learn and to grow. Death is just how we move on to the next stage of life.

    One of my favorite sayings is ‘you live and you learn’ because it is so true. There is nothing we can do except for living and learning. I especially like this quote when it is applied to making a mistake. It says to not worry. That life will keep going when you make a mistake. And you will learn from it. You will get better. It is like when you fell and scraped your knee as a kid. You live on, and have learned one way that things can end up in you scraping your knee so you can be more likely to avoid it in the future.

    That aside, I also like how the song points out trying to comprehend the extent of what forever is. Forever is a LONG time. It’s literally forever. It never ends. It’s like a circle with no beginning or end. Or two mirrors facing each other which reflect each other forever.

    I feel blessed and privileged to be a being that will never end, and am glad to share the world with similar beings!

    I hope this post gave you a little reminder of what forever is! ❤

  • God Loves You

    Free Silhouette of a person forming a heart with hands against a Morocco sunset. Stock Photo

    I heard something today at church that I wanted to share on here.

    Someone said that the fact that the sun was shining this morning is proof that God loves you because he made this earth for you.

    Think about that.

    A loving father in heaven made this beautiful earth for YOU.

    All the beautiful mountains and valleys. The oceans and lakes. Rivers and trees. Grass and sky. Stars and moon.

    And he does love you.

    Enough to have his son feel all your pains just so you wouldn’t have to go through them alone.

    And enough to make a way for you to come back to him and live in happiness forever.

    That is what a loving father in heaven did for you.

    Happy Sunday. ❤️

  • Your Stomach Doesn’t Need To Be Flat

    Hi there. Welcome back to Liveliness.

    I am a runner. I run three times a week. I run because I like to stay in shape and it’s good for my mental health.

    I also work a physically demanding job. I work four days a week.

    On top of that I try my best to eat healthily and not overeat. I eat my fruits and vegetables and get healthy carbs and fats. I get some protein too.

    In spite of all those efforts my stomach is not flat. Sure, in the mornings before I eat food it is flat, but one meal in my stomach and the bloating begins.

    Sometimes I hate how I look from the side with tight clothes on because my stomach sticks out a little bit.

    Don’t get me wrong, I am not overweight. I am actually pretty skinny, I just have a stomach that gets bloated easily.

    On YouTube and Instagram I see all these beauty and fitness influencers with flat stomachs and I start to compare myself to them and sometimes feel bad about myself that I am not like them.

    It’s ok to fall into the comparison trap once in awhile because everybody does. But once you notice you’re there, try not to stay there.

    It’s also ok to not have a flat stomach. Everybody’s body is made differently and mine just happens not to have a flat stomach.

    As long as I’m trying my best to stay healthy I think it’s ok. And for anybody else out there who may be struggling with the same thing, I hope that you can at least love yourself 1% more today!

    That’s my little message for the day, have a good one! ❤

  • Battle of the Deodorants

    Aluminum vs Aluminum Free vs Natural vs Clinical Strength

    I’ll be honest, I’m a pretty sweaty person. And smell, up until several months ago when I found my winning deodorant, was a problem for me. In the past, despite showering everyday and putting on copious amounts of deodorant, I still would end up smelling bad by the end of the day. This usually only happened on school days, or times that I spent outside my house, because I tended to get nervous around people which caused my sweat glands to secrete nervous sweat which smells bad.

    I was so embarrassed by this and I would try to wear jackets to cover up the smell to no avail. Sometimes they even made it worse because they made me hot which caused me to sweat more. I hated lifting my arms to do anything because it would release a whiff of BO and I would cringe inwardly while feeling ashamed because people around me could probably smell it.

    Those were the days that I was wearing a normal aluminum deodorant which clearly didn’t work for me. I bounced around a few popular brands, never really feeling satisfied with the results. I even tried men’s deodorant which I thought would work because it had to be stronger, right? Wrong. It worked just as poorly for me as the women’s deodorants.

    A couple years after those situations I was taking time off of school because of a brain injury that I had. If you want to learn more about it check out my previous two posts! And one of my doctors had me switch to a natural deodorant because he told me that aluminum deodorant was super bad for you, and could even leave calcium deposits in your brain.

    Today I googled this and google said that aluminum deodorant doesn’t cause calcium deposits in your brain. But at the time I believed him and got rid of my aluminum deodorant as quickly as possible and switched to a natural one.

    Now, the natural deodorant mostly worked for me since I wasn’t spending as much time around people or nervous sweating. But, when I did spend time around people, usually at church, I ended the time with a bit of a bad smell. I thought this was ridiculous because it wasn’t even a whole day, it was only a couple of hours and the deodorant couldn’t have my back for even that long.

    Later, I tried a different natural deodorant brand which I liked the smell of better, but it was the same story with me ending up a little smelly after a couple of hours around people.

    I wasn’t satisfied with this outcome and decided that natural deodorants weren’t it for me. But, unfortunately, I was still scared of aluminum and hadn’t yet discovered that it wasn’t as bad for you as my doctor had said. So I switched to an aluminum-free deodorant by Secret that I hoped would be a little more powerful than a natural deodorant.

    This deodorant worked for a little while, even when I was working long days in a physically demanding job. I ended the eight to ten hour days with little to no bad smell that I did not think was very irritating or noticeable to others.

    This was all good and fine until I started wearing closer fitting clothing that ended up catching the sweat and holding it against my skin for longer instead of letting it evaporate which caused there to be more of a bad smell on me.

    I was discouraged because the aluminum-free deodorant that I had been satisfied with had at last let me down. It reminded me of the times a couple of years ago when I had felt shame and embarrassment from my body odor. This is when I considered finally going to the doctor for a prescription strength deodorant.

    Before I had a chance to do this though, I heard an ad on YouTube for Secret Clinical Strength Deodorant that was available in stores. As soon as I could I raced over to my local Walmart and found my favorite scent out of the options–which is now one of my favorite scents of all time–and started wearing it. This deodorant had aluminum in it, but I was determined to smell good and leave the embarrassment of the past behind, so I decided to wear it anyways, at first as little as possible, but now I put it on once a day or more.

    This deodorant has Aluminum zirconium tetrachlorohydrex GLY in it which is found in some prescription strength deodorants, and is an antiperspirant as well. This powerful deodorant has been the deodorant of my dreams and has 9.9 times out of 10 left me smelling fresh and good. Finally, the battle of the deodorants had found a winner!

    No more days spent worrying that I smelled bad, and no more people that didn’t want to sit next to me because of the smell!

    The one downside to this deodorant is that I got a mild rash from it for a couple days, but it went away pretty quickly and I didn’t have to stop using it.

    I had also gotten over my fear of aluminum, figuring that even if I ended up with calcium deposits in my brain, at least I would have friends and be spared much heart-ache and embarrassment. Luckily, with writing this post and researching deodorant I have found out that very little aluminum from deodorant is absorbed into your skin, and what is is filtered out by your liver. Pro tip: do your research when doctors that you don’t completely trust give you advice.

    The only times when I smelled bad despite wearing this deodorant were on a date that I was very nervous for and a bridal shower that I shaved my armpits for before which shaved off the deodorant. I did apply more after that in the morning, but it is meant to be applied at night which can account for the lessened performance.

    Battle of the Deodorants winner: Secret Clinical Strength Deodorant!

    My favorite scent: Stress Response.

    The embarrassment and shame of days of old is gone and now I feel more confident and assured knowing that I smell good!

    I wish you all luck on your own journeys of conquering personal battles! I hope this post helped someone that may also be trying to find a deodorant that works! But, whether it be deodorant or something else, I hope you find what you are looking for and grow in ways you never thought possible!

    Much love. <3.